I'm A Retired Crash Out But God's Intentional. The Story of Dark and Light.

Retired Crash Dummy Turned Highest Self I used to wear my pain like armor I thought being ride or die made me strong That sacrificing myself for love meant I was loyal That being chosen meant I had to endure being broken first But the truth is, I was a crash dummy for pain. I was male centered Raised in a dynamic where I believed love had to be earned by pleasing fixing and proving And because of that, I attracted someone who mirrored everything I hadnt healed A narcissist who didnt just hurt me he exposed me He mirrored my abandonment wounds He mirrored the emotional neglect I had normalized He mirrored the gaslighting I grew up with and learned to call love That relationship wasnt a curse It was an initiation It forced me to see myself To stop pretending To stop calling trauma loyalty To face my inner child who never got chosen who never got protected who never got told she was enough just by being And for the first time I chose her That pain led me to my power That heartbreak cracked me open That darkness made me meet my light I stopped chasing love and started becoming it I stopped begging for the bare minimum and started expecting divine alignment And the moment I stopped identifying with struggle my true lover came The one who sees me holds me and respects me not because I earned it but because hes aligned with the healed version of me The version that knows what she deserves The version that no longer mistakes intensity for intimacy The version that no longer crashes for love I am no longer the girl who thought love meant pain I am the woman who met herself and then met her match*This entry is participating in the ReelShort Reel Vertical Impact contest